Friday, June 24, 2011

Breastfeeding woes....

The internet has a down fall - when you have times on your hands you tend to surf the web and read.  Well as usual I am up and pumping every 3 hours with time on my hands has the wosh wosh of the pump drones on - so I surf the web!

I came across some articles about breastfeeding and those who feed their babies breast milk but excursively pump - which has turned into me!  Yes I figured I would breastfeed my babies and thats about all the thought I gave to it until reality checked in.

The twins came a few weeks early at 34 weeks so they both had to spend time in the NICU.  Now i was told to start pumping right away to help bring in my milk - which I did.  Once my milk had come in Is at down with a lactation specialist to work on getting J to latch on (C had some other medical issues that wouldnt allow to work with him just yet).  Well it didn't go so well.  They told me and assured me it was nothing I did or didn't do but the fact that they were preemies hindered their ability to latch, such and swallow like a full term baby.  So determined not to get discourged a pumping I went so they would get my breast milk.

However as time went on and both boys were discharged from the hospital I was still pumping - I did try having them latch on with the help of a sheild but it just wasnt going well.  J would latch for a min or two and then quit.  So I made up my mind and I said I wasn't going to try any more and to pump exclusivley.

This is where the surfing came in that made me mad- I came across acrticles about exclusively pumping and how it was ok and so on - but the comments people made about how HORRIBLE that was or how WRONG etc etc etc

My thoughts (besides to me getting made and sense of of doing wrong hitting me) was do these people going on and on about how pumping exclusively is bad have complications or situations that made actual breast feeding hard- I think not.  I bet most of them had their babies around their due date, didn't have twins, and didn't get discharged from the hospital without one of your babies coming home with you!  THEY DON"T UNDERSTAND OR GET IT!

One of the hardest things I had to deal with when my boys were born was sitting in my room at night trying to sleep and my husband and I would notice how quiet it was and hear every other baby cry in the middle of the night - and here we were in an empty room just the 2 of us because the boys were in the NICU. Try that one on for size you critisizing women out there and see how that will make you feel.  And on top of that not being able to go visit your babies for 24 hours after they were born because you are hooked up to a million tubes and beeping things.  Yeah I saw J for like 5 mins a few hours after they were born but I was sooooo looped out from be completly put all the way under do to the ergency of my c section they didn't have time to do anything but put me all the way under - that I barely remember holding him and peering a C in some plastic box (thats all I understood at that moment).

So to these women out there that judge and go on and on about what is right or wrong - take a moment and walk in my shoes or someone else's shoes and maybe you wont be so judgmental.  And honestly there are way worse cases than my delivery!

So I feel I am doing my motherly best by pumping every 3 hours and bottle feeding my babies a mixture of my milk and formula!  Heck something must be good with it if my Dr feels that at only a month old he doesnt need to see them every week any more!  :P

Twins update 6/24

The boys had their 1 month Dr appointment today... and YES it is hard to believe they turned 1 month old on the 21st!

My boys are getting so big: Jacob is 8 lbs 1.8 oz and 20.5 inches- Caleb is 6 lbs 4.2 oz and 19 3/4 inches.   It is hard to believe that at birth Jacob was 5 lbs 2/6 oz and 17 in  and Caleb was 4 lbs 3/6 oz and 17 in.

Dr said they are doing so well they don't need to go back for another month. However, they need to stay on preemie formula for 1 more month

The boys have been getting lots of love between friends and family coming to visit.

The boys and I headed to Columbia the other day to get together with some other new multiples moms for "coffee" - it was nice to compare notes and asked some more seasoned new moms some questions.

Andy had a nice night out last night with Adam at the U2 concert.  I am having my night out next week when I get to do my media thing and try out a new restaurant that just opened!

We took some formal pictures of the boys but need to edit them and then we will get them up on  and then I am sending out our formal birth announcements.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

The Twins are 4 weeks old!

Time has flown by - I can't believe 4 weeks ago today my water broke and the boys arrives at 34 weeks!  We made it through a C-section, NICU and all!  A blessing no matter how many ups and downs it has!

I may lack in the sleep department and I may gets frazzled and stressed but I am doing my best to give it all I got and not let it get the best of me.  Yes two babies is a hand full and if you have only been one baby you could never understand how dealing with two babies is!

Support from family and friends is the best gift ever - even when I say there is nothing you can do (just find something around the house that needs done - unload dishwasher, throw in a load of wash or you can even give the gift of a meal which takes a HUGE load off)!

So a typical day with the Twins...

  • 6 am: feed and change - then I/we try to go back to sleep
  • 9 am: feed and change - up and gotta go wash bottles
  • 12 pm:  feed and change - find something for myself to eat
  • 3 pm:  feed and change - think about dinner that we need to eat between 4-5
  • 6 pm:  feed and change - wash more bottles and get 8 bottles together for the night time feedings
  • 9 pm:  feed and change - we turn the lights out ASAP and go to bed ourselves
  • 12 am:  feed and change - hope they go to sleep right away so that we can
  • 3 am:  feed and change - what time is it? Everything is blurring together
  • 6 am : start all over again

So I started to think about (or as much as my brain would allow)...
  • We use at least 16 diapers a day
  • Dirty 16 bottles in 24 hours
  • I pump 16 times a day for 10-30 mins
  • During the night I sleep in 1-2 hour stints
  • Run the dishwasher 2-4 times a day with bottles in it and sometimes nothing else
  • Was at least one load a wash a day
  • Fill the diaper pail up in about 1.5 days maybe 2 days
  • Drink enough water that I seriously think I will burst or float away
  • Shower when I can (which is not every day)
  • Live in my PJs if I am not leaving the house
  • Sometimes forget what day it is
  • Welcome visitors who are willing to help!
  • Wish I won the lottery so I could have a personal chef and house cleaner
  • Find that the internet is my sense of sanity
But in all reality - I am doing it and surviving!!!!!  Wouldn't give them back or change a thing!


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